Things have been quiet. Yesterday was the therapist, and tomorrow's an appointment with my advisor for college. I'm a bit nervous about the walking on campus since I'm not so great at it yet, but we'll see how it goes.
I've stuck to my diet since my first post here, which is a big accomplishment for me. Still idly pondering posting weekly calorie/carb totals - maybe I will every friday for the week before.
9.22.2010
9.20.2010
Monday Weigh-In
Monday's weight and stats are here!
Weight: 399.7 pounds
BMI: 73.1
I'm sure the bulk is water for now. It's a good feeling to have managed to stick to my new lifestyle for a week. I still catch myself wanting to say 'diet' instead, but the reality is the change and behaviors must be permanent. Onward we go!
Weight: 399.7 pounds
BMI: 73.1
I'm sure the bulk is water for now. It's a good feeling to have managed to stick to my new lifestyle for a week. I still catch myself wanting to say 'diet' instead, but the reality is the change and behaviors must be permanent. Onward we go!
9.19.2010
Sunday Update
Friday night I stabbed myself in the finger whilst making dinner. I guess healthy cooking can be dangerous! It's a bit awkward now to do much, but I've been ignoring it and proceeding as planned. In the past I'd use this excuse to other pizza or eat other crap, but that's no longer an option. In fact, the thought to do that didn't even occur to me until I started to get ready to write my update, which makes me sort of proud. It's the little things that add up.
I've been having very bad leg cramps this weekend, so I'm taking care to massage my legs before walking, and making sure that I'm not cold. It seems to help a bit, but I'm still having trouble when I sleep of all things. I'll make a note of it if this continues and mention it to the doctor.
I've been having very bad leg cramps this weekend, so I'm taking care to massage my legs before walking, and making sure that I'm not cold. It seems to help a bit, but I'm still having trouble when I sleep of all things. I'll make a note of it if this continues and mention it to the doctor.
9.18.2010
Goals
I figured during the downtime of the weekend that it'd be a good idea to write out and plan my goals for weight loss. Right now I'm not planning on losing more than two pounds a week to be safe, but that makes for daunting numbers:
Starting weight: 407 lbs
Final goal: 150 lbs
Total needed to lose: 257 lbs
At two pounds a week, it works out to taking about two and a half years to finish. That's... a long time. It can't all be done at once forever, just one step forward at a time.
My first landmark goal is to have lost half the weight I need to. At that point I'll weigh 278 lbs - still quite overweight, but better than 407 pounds, certainly. I will need to lose ~128 pounds to reach that point. My first short term goal is to lose eight pounds and drop below 400 pounds. I'll reach this no matter what!
Starting weight: 407 lbs
Final goal: 150 lbs
Total needed to lose: 257 lbs
At two pounds a week, it works out to taking about two and a half years to finish. That's... a long time. It can't all be done at once forever, just one step forward at a time.
My first landmark goal is to have lost half the weight I need to. At that point I'll weigh 278 lbs - still quite overweight, but better than 407 pounds, certainly. I will need to lose ~128 pounds to reach that point. My first short term goal is to lose eight pounds and drop below 400 pounds. I'll reach this no matter what!
9.17.2010
Friday Report
It's about 11 AM and things are good so far. I've had a lot of trouble getting up at my normal early time this week. Today I went back for an hour, but managed to drag my behind up still early-ish. Still, the goal is to be up and about by 7 AM each day, not 8:30 AM, both because I need to adhere to a schedule and also because it makes both my depression and weight loss easier.
Next weigh in is on Monday, and I hope that the scale is kind to me. I wound up getting a new scale. It's a problem to find scales when you're over 400 pounds for a few reasons. High-capacity is one sure, but the other is that your natural footprint is much wider than that of a skinny person, and so you need a wider scale. Luckily, I found this scale which is really nice. I heart it muchly. It's wide enough for me to stand on, not fussy, and while a touch pricier than one at say Target, it does the job really well. I look forward to see the ever decreasing numbers!
Next weigh in is on Monday, and I hope that the scale is kind to me. I wound up getting a new scale. It's a problem to find scales when you're over 400 pounds for a few reasons. High-capacity is one sure, but the other is that your natural footprint is much wider than that of a skinny person, and so you need a wider scale. Luckily, I found this scale which is really nice. I heart it muchly. It's wide enough for me to stand on, not fussy, and while a touch pricier than one at say Target, it does the job really well. I look forward to see the ever decreasing numbers!
9.16.2010
Thursday Report
Thursday's statistics:
Calories: 1,553
Carbohydrate: 51g (24g of this fiber)
Protein: 92g
I'm not intentionally restricting calories, but I just am happening to eat less because I've not been hungry. I've been having breakfast and dinner only, skipping lunch. I did drink less than I was expecting, but I just wasn't thirsty. Trying really hard to not eat or drink when my body isn't grumbling to.
Calories: 1,553
Carbohydrate: 51g (24g of this fiber)
Protein: 92g
I'm not intentionally restricting calories, but I just am happening to eat less because I've not been hungry. I've been having breakfast and dinner only, skipping lunch. I did drink less than I was expecting, but I just wasn't thirsty. Trying really hard to not eat or drink when my body isn't grumbling to.
9.15.2010
Have to start somewhere...
I guess we all have to start somewhere. I'm starting today at 407 pounds. Here's my weight loss story.
I'm in my 30's, recently divorced, and working on getting my life back in general. The reason I'm so overweight? I could make many excuses, but the truth is simply because I have not taken care of myself as I should. I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorders, and have an eating addiction. Now that I'm in therapy and slowly moving back to school, I'm getting things back one step at a time. I accept no other results except for success.
The starting stats:
Weight: 407 pounds
Height: 5'2"
BMI: 74.4
Ouch. Kind of suck, don't they? No one to blame for this but me. Now it's time to take responsibility and kick ass.
In order to lose weight, I'm changing both what I eat and how I go about my day. In terms of food, I'll be avoiding most starches and most grains. Yes, I realize that conventional wisdom says whole grains are healthy, but they trigger very bad addictive tendencies when I eat them. One slice of bread never quits there - it's a loaf of bread. I simply have to say no and draw the line here. So, that takes wheat, corn, oats, rye, potatoes and the like off the list. If I'm really dying to eat it, and it's a special occasion, I might make concessions. As long as I'm not eating it out of boredom, depression, laziness, complacency, or self-abuse, I will. That probably sounds corny as hell, but we'll see. It probably won't be a weekly, or even a monthly thing. Instead, I'll eat fruit (fresh without sugar or processing) when the sweet tooth hits.
While I'll be eating 50g or less of carbs a day, the bulk of my food will be fresh vegetables, as large a variety as possible. Most of these I'll try to get in leafy greens such as kale, turnip greens, romaine, endive, escarole, and the like. Think probably anywhere from 2-4 pounds of vegetation a day. I'll also be eating meat and eggs, of course, the best I can afford.
I'm using the book The Primal Blueprint as my framework. I'm not going to worry about healthy carbs too much overall, unless I start eating way more fruit than I should be (think upwards of 100+ carbs of binging). We'll see how it goes.
I'll be keeping track of my nutrients and such. Not sure if I'll do it here, but perhaps I'll set up FitDay to do it. I already use the retail version to track it, but perhaps extra accountability would be good?
Lastly I'd like to thank Tyler at the 344 Pounds weblog. His writing gave me the needed jolt to get started. So thank you, Tyler! Also, he's an awesome guy. I suggest you check out his website if you haven't. He's a really inspiring fellow.
I'm in my 30's, recently divorced, and working on getting my life back in general. The reason I'm so overweight? I could make many excuses, but the truth is simply because I have not taken care of myself as I should. I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorders, and have an eating addiction. Now that I'm in therapy and slowly moving back to school, I'm getting things back one step at a time. I accept no other results except for success.
The starting stats:
Weight: 407 pounds
Height: 5'2"
BMI: 74.4
Ouch. Kind of suck, don't they? No one to blame for this but me. Now it's time to take responsibility and kick ass.
In order to lose weight, I'm changing both what I eat and how I go about my day. In terms of food, I'll be avoiding most starches and most grains. Yes, I realize that conventional wisdom says whole grains are healthy, but they trigger very bad addictive tendencies when I eat them. One slice of bread never quits there - it's a loaf of bread. I simply have to say no and draw the line here. So, that takes wheat, corn, oats, rye, potatoes and the like off the list. If I'm really dying to eat it, and it's a special occasion, I might make concessions. As long as I'm not eating it out of boredom, depression, laziness, complacency, or self-abuse, I will. That probably sounds corny as hell, but we'll see. It probably won't be a weekly, or even a monthly thing. Instead, I'll eat fruit (fresh without sugar or processing) when the sweet tooth hits.
While I'll be eating 50g or less of carbs a day, the bulk of my food will be fresh vegetables, as large a variety as possible. Most of these I'll try to get in leafy greens such as kale, turnip greens, romaine, endive, escarole, and the like. Think probably anywhere from 2-4 pounds of vegetation a day. I'll also be eating meat and eggs, of course, the best I can afford.
I'm using the book The Primal Blueprint as my framework. I'm not going to worry about healthy carbs too much overall, unless I start eating way more fruit than I should be (think upwards of 100+ carbs of binging). We'll see how it goes.
I'll be keeping track of my nutrients and such. Not sure if I'll do it here, but perhaps I'll set up FitDay to do it. I already use the retail version to track it, but perhaps extra accountability would be good?
Lastly I'd like to thank Tyler at the 344 Pounds weblog. His writing gave me the needed jolt to get started. So thank you, Tyler! Also, he's an awesome guy. I suggest you check out his website if you haven't. He's a really inspiring fellow.
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